Dear E.,

It’s me, your Aunt Alyssa… Do you want to know a secret? I can’t keep it from you any longer because I’m bursting out the seams! And truthfully, I don’t really want it to be a secret. Okay, here it is… I love you SO much and I haven’t even met you yet.

I’ve watched you grow in pictures for 18 months. I’ve always wondered what it would be like to hold you… to hug you a little too tight, to hear your giggle, to make you smile, to know you. But the thing is, E, I might not know what makes you laugh, or your favorite color, song, or toy. I might not know the color of your eyes in the sunlight or the texture of your hair. I might not know how to soothe you when you cry or the trick to help you fall asleep, but I do know one thing and it’s that I love you more than I thought possible.

Maybe one day when you’re older we’ll talk about why you don’t really know me yet… why we’ve been robbed of our time together… why I can’t be the aunt I’ve always wanted to be… But what’s important is that you will, and even though it might be for a short little bit of time, I’ll never forget it, even if you do, and that’s okay.

I can’t wait to love you and tell you how much I do and always will. I can’t wait to know you, E.

Love forever and always,

Aunt Alyssa

5 comments

  1. Your love shines through so strongly. I hope you print this out to give to E when she’s older. I especially love your writing in the paragraph where you say, “I might not know…” Those details are so precise and specific. And they contrast beautifully with the big picture that you do know.

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