5:40 am this morning is when I gave up trying to stay asleep until my alarm went off. I already had been over my lesson at least 4 times between the time I fell asleep and woke up. You got this. Green zone.
I spent a few extra minutes in the shower to rehearse my lesson in my head just one more time- this is my third observation, third times a charm! I did positive affirmations. I danced to my favorite song on my way into school and got myself ready. It was even a good hair day. I prepped my breakfast the night before knowing I could munch on it while printing what I needed to for the day. I even left all of the tabs open on my laptop the night before so that I could just print as soon as I got in to school. I was in the green zone… calm, cool, collected. But then, the printer had another idea: Hold for authentication. Yellow zone.
Excuse me? I tried and I tried but the printer wouldn’t budge. Think. That’s when the library printer came to the rescue: Printing accepted. I retrieved my papers from the printer, organized what I and my para needed for that morning and was ready to project my screen. But then, the projector had another idea: HDMI NOT CONNECTED. Yellow zone.
Little feet started shuffling in. I was frantically trying to get my screen up but even with all of my efforts, nothing seemed to work. I didn’t turn the music on. How was I going to do morning meeting? No one will be able to see their groups. Five minutes left. What book was I going to read?! They’re so quiet and they’re staring… UGH. Yellow zone.
Fast forward. I made it out alive. I was breathing. My students were understanding and flexible angels as usual. I really couldn’t have asked for a better turnout. I scrambled and it wasn’t the lesson I had rehearsed- but it was real and it was over. Now I can breathe… until my post-observation meeting… when is that again? I’m so tired. Blue zone.
1:00 pm: time to come up with another phonics lesson I can adapt. C is raising his hand.
C: “Miss S., I was in the yellow zone this morning. But we didn’t get to do our usual morning meeting, so I couldn’t tell you.”
Me: “I’m so sorry! Do you want to talk about it now?”
C: “I was feeling really nervous about your observation. What if you didn’t do a good enough job? I was afraid maybe you wouldn’t be my teacher anymore.”
My heart began to melt…
Me: “Well, how’d I do? Do you think I did a good job?”
C: “No. You didn’t do a good job. You did an amazing job.”
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