Day 28 Rainy Sunday
So I tried to take a walk today, but it rained too hard. I ended up doing an online exercise program, followed by stretching. See, I am doing PT because one hip isn’t working as it should. It is stiffer, less flexible, and somewhat irritated. It took me a while to figure out what was going on, because this school year I’m not able to sit on the rug (no rug) in our morning circle (no circle) like I would every day. I finally realized something was off when I was trying out some online yoga a few months ago. A couple doctors appointments and I’m in PT. It’s only been two weeks, so I haven’t seen much improvement yet. But I am hopeful.
I also had to get a night guard made this year. Almost every morning I woke with uncomfortable tension in my jaw and with sore teeth. That’s what happens when you grind your teeth at night. The night guard made it worse for a while, and it’s taken a couple visits to the dentist to get it almost right. Recently I realized mask wearing is making my jaw worse, too, as I’m unconsciously thrusting my jaw forward to keep my mask where I guess I want it. I have to unlearn that.
Before school started, I was sick to my stomach for weeks with worries, and actually lost weight. I noticed each time we shifted from face-to-face, my worries lessened. When we went back, they increased. Now that we have been face-to-face since mid-January, there is less of this yo-yo of worries. It’s more of a low-grade constant worry about keeping my students, my family and myself safe.
This year has been stressful, no doubt. I don’t like that it has taken a toll on my body. I’m working hard to take it back. Listening to the rain, I can’t help but wish it was a warm summer rain I am hearing.